OMG breaknews!!!!

As if you didn't see this one coming: People Magazine has selected Robert Pattinson as their Sexiest Man Alive for 2009, ahead of Taylor Lautner, the entire cast of True Blood, and even Andy Roddick! Congrats R-Pattz. The official announcement is coming on Wednesday. (via JJB)

compare wit Taylor Lautner... aawwww!!!! errrr... :P

how the fuck can you be scared of love?

Sometimes I wonder what I would answer if my friends asked me if I was in love with him. Now, they would never question because I'm really good at hiding my feelings due to years of practise. But IF.

"I don't know" I might say. "I'll admit that there is a certain tension between him and me that I don't feel I have with anyone else." Then, after a moment of thought, I might continue: "But, what I do know is that sometimes I want to stroke his back so bad I can't barely stand it, and sometimes I make things on purpose just so I can be near him. What I also do know, is that I'm scared. So awfully scared."

The ting is that I don't want to feel anything. At all. But sometimes the feelings attack me so hard I can't ignore them anymore. They push and push and push, until they finally come through, and then, usually, I run. I can't bear to deal with them, and I certainly can't deal with the feelings that comes after. When you've been hurt. And you always get hurt.

I never let anyone in. It takes years of good behaviour to make me trust a person fully. Much because I've been let down. Hard. I've poured my heart out to people who only stomped it and threw it away. Such things hurt. And leave marks. So, in many many years I've never let myself feel anything for anyone, I've run when I couldn't ignore the feelings anymore. I've run so awfully much, in such an awful long time, and I'm so awfully tired.

So, this time, I shave sworn to myself to stay put, to not run from them. The feelings that make me want him to hold me. The feelings that, when he looks at me in a certain way, are so overwhelming that it takes all of my self-restraint to not move over and kiss him full on the mouth. The feelings that makes me pee myself out of fear.

I really don't know what to do. People tell me loving someone is the greatest thing in life, but I know how you feel when you get hurt, and I know running is easy and it spares your feelings, and... And I'm babbeling. I always do when I'm scared. And I'm so awfully scared right now.

How the fuck can you be scared of love? I truly must be an idiot.

Got Punk

i got this tagging photo by my friends. it makes me laugh when im read it. thx Frans Chris :P

Colorfull Fashion Fotogaphy by lain crawford

Photographer Iain Crawford has quite a unique focus when it comes to fashion photography. While the resulting images are brilliant, beautiful and colourful, its likely the models may not enjoy these shoots. Crawford paints and peppers the models during the shoot, capturing perfect moments of chaotic color. His work has to be seen to be believed. [IainCrawford via DesignYouTrust]

DVD and blueberry jam

sometimes life just makes you wants to dance. maybe your heart was broken. maybe your knees were scarped, maybe your body was ravaged by a sickness. but when you looked up there a same shine sunny in the sky :) after watched 2012, one word, horrifying. i think the director did a good job creating such a realistic setting.

oh..geez, please dont let it happen. i haven't fallen head over heels in love even once yet. i think everyone should before they die. or it'd be like we never lived at all. love seems to be prevalent topics. in my head, these day, in everyone constantly discussing about it. at come what may. YOU NEVER LOSE BY LOVING. YOU ALWAYS LOSE BY HOLDING BACK.

but if your heart got broken so many times that a surface loses it shine and are covered with imperfectionis, can one still love? or would it take someone wit a first aid kit to ressurect you? makes you wonder.

okaaay.... enough!!!

wuuuah, gw bnr2 capek bgt bbrp hari ini :( mgkn karena banyak tugas kulia yang harus dikerjar date line dan ga habis2nya. tommorow is my day off, so i decided to spend this nite to watchin this movie, taaaraaaa...... 500 days of summers (i watchin this twice, what a romantic movies), maybe i sleep earlier tonight. adioos reader :)

for your info....

The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition ost. 500 days of summers yang nyanyi org indonesia loh..wuaaah, proud to be rite?? gw ga nyangka bgt, dr suaranya aja ga nyangka.. hmmm :)
i love this song so so much..

Gemma Ward Has NOT Quit Modeling

Hallelujah praise Jesus. Gemma has spoken and she rendered all the recent press reports that she "quit" as null and void. Fashionologie blogged Gemma emailed the West Australian newspaper that she'll be back working next year.

Ding Dong

Sometimes I wish that there were such magical device like from the movie (Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind). Where you can erase the entire memory of one person you wish to delete. Like deleting his picture from your computer. Permanently. Even if that person made a big impact in your life, even for a short period of time, like, 6 months. I want it gone. All gone. Unrequited love is the most cruelest love out there. I'm in love, all alone. It's been a year since we broke up, of course I'm all alone, what am I thinking? Sorry it's the love gas talking. But it's so strange to be in it all by myself. If he was still in love like I am, he'll be back right? He would tell me, wouldn't he? Here's the thing: Why do we question love? Love should be blunt and straight forward. If he loves you, he'll come back. He'll come back.... Or am I bullshitting myself? There goes the question mark again. I need to get myself out of this loop. I'm in love with a man who doesn't even keep in touch with me anymore. I'm in love with a guy who, I'm pretty sure, doesn't think about me on a daily basis like I do with him.

Have a great day reader :))

Bad Romance

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!! I'M DYING... DYING... DYING IN MY OWN CESSPOOL OF JEALOUSY.

Lady Gaga WERQED the hell out of Alexander McQueen! Totes Amaze. TOTES AMAZE! Watch and werq.


EXCUSE ME WHILE I POISON MYSELF...

LUCKYYYY SHE GOT TO WEAR IT!!!



You know what... I need an intervention from this Lady Gaga insanity. Does anyone have Oprah on speed dial? Someone call her and pass the phone to me please.

That's all :)

Hal Kecil Itu Sempurna

Suatu hari seniman terkenal Michelangelo dikunjungi oleh temannya. Setelah bicara panjang lebar, temannya bertanya kepada michelangelo tentang patung yang sudah lama dikerjakannya.
"patung itu sudah selesai kan?" kata temannya.

"oh, belum," jawab michelangelo, "saya masih harus menyempurnakan garis wajahnya, memperbaiki otot kaki, memoles bagian dada dan mempertajam garis matanya."

"tapi semua itu cuma hal-hal kecil," kata temannya.

"memang benar," jawab angelo, "namun hal-hal kecil itu menghasilkan kesempurnaan, dan kesempurnaan jelas bukan hal kecil."

Have a great day reader :)

"the teacher I never had"

im just watchin this movie on HBO. its based on true stories. As a child with Tourette syndrome, Brad Cohen was ridiculed, beaten, mocked, and shunned. All people arround him. Children, teachers, and even family members found it difficult to be around him. Brad is sometimes rejected, in every where he is.

ada banyak hal yang gw dapet dari film ini :
1. seharusnya kita bersyukur atas apa yg udah Tuhan kasih buat kita, kurang dan lebihnya itu sudah Tuhan yang atur. karena di luar sana masih banyak org yang berkekurangan atau ga sesempurna kita. jangan pernah mengeluhakan atas keadaan. karena Tuhan ga akan kasih apa-apa bagi manusia yang mengharapkan hal kedagingan.
2. ternyata banyak hal di luar sana yang terkadang jarang sekali kita perhatikan. hal kecil yang sering gw anggap ga penting atau cm dianggap sebelah mata aja. bahkan sama sekali ga terjamah dan terlihat di mata. pada hal itu merupakan hal yang berharga dan berkilau.
3. apa pun kalian sekarang, bagaimana pun keadaan kalian, kalian harus tetep berusaha keras untuk mendapatkan apa pun yang kalian harapkan. semua hal bisa tercapai bukan dilihat dari bagaimana kita, siapa kita, baju apa yang kita pakai, bukan dari fisik, wajah, atau kedudukan kita. tapi kita bisa mendapatkan sesuatu asal kita mau berusaha dan punya motivasi yang besar. kita harus punya tujuan, dan punya mind set yang kuat buat dapat meraih semuanya itu. hati yang tulus dalam menjalankan sesuatu, itu yang akan dilihat orang. terus berusaha, karena semakin kamu mengusahakan sesuatu, semakin kamu banyak belajar dari situ. bermimpilah setinggi langit, kalau pun suatu saat nanti kalian jatuh, masih ada bintang yang akan menadah mu.
4. jadilah orang yang sederhana dan rendah hati, karena besok kita gak akan tau apa yang akan terjadi. jangan pernah mengsia-siakan hari ini, karena hari ini tidak akan pernah terulang lagi. dan jangan pernah menyesali hari yang kemarin karena itu cuma membuang waktu mu. karena itu sama saja dengan membuang-buang waktu untuk hari ini.
5. di dunia ini tidak ada yang sempurna. kalau setiap kali kamu melakukan sesuatu dan gagal, bukan berarti kamu gak bisa dan ga sempurna. karena dari kegagalan itu kamu belajar untuk menjadi orang yang lebih baik lagi. bukan berarti kamu cacat fisik, kamu gak bisa melakukan apa pun. karena kamu punya hati, semangat, pikiran, punya orang-orang yang selalu ada di sekitar kamu yang akan selalu mendukung, karena kalian punya Tuhan yang besar. itu yang akan membuat kamu hidup. masalah tidak ada yang besar, karena kalian punya kemampuan yang lebih besar untuk menyelesaikan masalah mu.

sekarang Brad Cohen menjadi seorang motivator, dan menjadi seorang guru. amaze kan, dengan berbagai kekurangan yang dimiliki. Brad’s motivational presentations are about positive attitude, perseverance, giving people a chance, accepting differences, overcoming obstacles, celebrating abilities, and setting high expectations and achieving your goals. walau Brad mempunyai kelainan, tapi semangat yang besar, bisa merubah semuanya. dia tidak menjadi kalah karena sindrome tourette nya. dia menerima kelainan yang ada dalam dirinya. dan jadilah sekarang seorang Brad Cohen yang luar biasa.

jadi jangan pernah menyerah, jangan pernah berpikir kamu ga bisa, selamanya kamu bakal selalu gak bisa kalau kamu terus-menerus mengatakan "saya tidak bisa!" kuasa atas perkataan dan pikiran mu, akan menjadi tanduk mu sendiri. u must watchin this movies guys, kalian bakal dapet banyak pelajaran dari film ini.

have a great day reader :)

Drowning

I met a boy and fell for him fast. We moved fast. Everything was such a rush, everything was perfect, we were so obsessed with each other. Call before we sleep, always send the short mssg. but im do mistake. im lie to him. and i decided to tell the truth. But I had to leave, and I knew I couldn’t lie to him anymore. I thought it would be better to have no contact. but i was wrong. im sorry for lies :( i dont mean like that

I was wrong. It was the stupidest decision of my life, because I find that not knowing someone well, can make you never get over them. The truth is, I don’t know him that well. What we had was short, it was over before I had a chance to see whether we were really good together, whether he was right for me. So all this time, even while I’ve had relationships with so many other guys, I always compare the new boys to one boy who I barely even knew, and they all fall short. Because his memory is so perfect, it’s so indestructible because it’s unfinished. I didn’t have time to discover his flaws, the little quirks that annoy, the arguments that break a couple a part. I didn’t give him a chance to show me that side of himself. All I have are the memories of that new, excited feeling. Of butterflies every time his fingers brushed my arm, of electric sparks every time we kissed, because it was so new, and unexpected and amazing. I have idealized this boy to the point where he is perfect in my eyes, and because of that, I can’t be satisfied with anyone else. But I can’t go back to him either, I cut off all ties, made it clear I never wanted to talk to him. He doesn’t know I think about him every day. He probably thinks he was completely insignificant, because I lied, and told him that he was. I swore I couldn’t care less. He has no idea. And I have no idea what it would be like to really be with him, have a real relationship with him, and I have to live with the fact that it is completely my fault. For being so proud, and so presumptuous to think I would get over him in two minutes. I never thought I’d hold on this long, to a ghost of a person. To an illusion of a person, that isn’t very likely a true reflection of him anyway.

And my advice to anyone reading this is, don’t let opportunities pass you by. Don’t dismiss people without thinking about how you may feel later. Don’t end something great, just because you think it would be too inconvenient to your life to let it continue. The truth is, everyone needs closure. Even if you do try something, and it’s difficult, and it ends, at least you know you tried. At least you know it was really the right decision to end it. You tried, and you failed. That’s okay, that’s something you’ll get over. But wondering, always wondering how it would have went if you had just let it happen, that’s torture. It’s the “what ifs” that keep me up at night. And the fact that he was strong enough to want me, to want to put up a fight for me, and I wasn’t strong enough to fight for him. And for the way I feel now, I have only myself to blame.

Natalie Portman for V Magazine 62

Photographed by Mario Testino. Flawless! it's refreshing to see someone like Natalie, who has that all-American sweetheart image, be 'edgy'.But then again, didn't she shaved her head once? How does Natalie Portman make you feel? :)

The Wedding

This is for someone out there. who really gave me a little light on my heart :) thx for a little time today,the wedding at Ritz Carlton :)

New Moon

This is my favorite picture some from Harper Bazaar. TWILIGHT everybody!!! :)

Want This So Much

this shoes from chloé susan boots. woow i really LIKE THIS!!! geez, i want it

Moving Forward

Life indeed is a mystery, we will never know what lies ahead unless if we are brave enough to uncover it. Im one among those people who are not afraid to challenge life. Losing or winning is not what it takes.. its about how you're going to do it, on how you play the game of Life. I lose so many times, fall down trice but still able to hold up on what is left of me... my dignity. Because of this i learn to stand up alone and face my nightmares that had been haunting me for quite a long time, that had been trying to pull me deeper to the abyss but to no avail. Thanks to my family who had been always their for me in times like this. The endless supportive love that they gave, makes me become a better person as what I am right now. I have chosen my path and not a single regret in my mind. I know that im in the right track this time and plan to keep it that way. Just straight ahead, no other Turns, but to the path where my Heart Beats. Yeah Love.. taking chances on love again and this .

have a great day reader :)

Dream

i can sleep well tonite, so a decided to writing something about ballerina. i wish i could be a pro ballerina. and my favorite ballerina are Alessandra Ferri and polina semionova. i really adore both of her. kind of speechless.Greatest ballerina ever :)

This is some picture from Polina Semionova...

and the other my favorite ballerina alessandra ferri this is my favorite picture.. :))

ACYMOSH 2009

Hari ini panitia ACYMOSH 2009- UKM ECC Atmajaya makan2 di buffet-plaza semanggi. dalam rangka pembubaran panitia.. this is some picture from my camera pocket :)good nite reader. bonne nuit..!!

i am Legend

After five days in theaters, Michael Jackson’s This Is It grossed more than $101 million worldwide. wow, what a great movies guys. u must watchin :)